About Lauren Ashley Autrey
Music is the language that speaks love, life, happiness, pain, strength, weakness and just about every other emotion known to man. Each and every human being has a story that can be written and spoken through music. Music displays all the colors of a person’s heart and sends a special message and energy out that can move people in a way like no other. Music can make a difference. As a tiny little girl, my heart would melt watching my father play his guitar. It was God that planted the musical seed within me, but my father that helped it grow. Each time he would play his guitar, I could feel myself becoming closer and closer to the magical world of music. I remember looking up at my father holding a pen in one hand and his guitar in the other.
He would pour his heart out on a piece of paper and escape his daily stresses of life. It didn’t take long for my parents to realize that music was within me as well. It all started with “The Little Mermaid” and the movie “Annie.” I would sing the tunes from these movies until my parents would have to escape to get a break. I loved performing and singing in front of huge crowds. I was completely fearless and rocked any stage my parents put me on. Then Middle school happened and the insecurities set in.
Middle School That time in your life when your body is awkward and your teeth are larger than your face. You couldn’t have paid me to get on a stage during that time of my life. This is when I began exploring the other side of music and began writing songs. At this time, I wasn’t able to play guitar so I would just write lyrics about boys, friends and teenage hardships. Although I would come up with little melodies to my lyrics, I soon realized I needed to learn to play guitar if I wanted to truly make some music.
So I printed a chord chart and went to town teaching myself just enough to write some melodies for my lyrics. It wasn’t until my junior year of high school though, that I believe I wrote my first “real” song. One of my close friends was struggling with suicidal thoughts and life in general. She had been abused and scarred for life. I could see her tears and feel her pain. It inspired me to write a song about her. A song that spoke of the pain that she was going through and could get the attention of those who needed to know where she was emotionally.
I never imagined though, that five years later, I too would be going through some of these same emotions. A few bad decisions and a few wrong turns and boom, there I was in the worst place I have ever been in my entire life. Twenty-two years old, two baby girls and a highly abusive man killing my soul little by little. This man literally tore me down to the point where I no longer saw the purpose in living. I didn’t sing, write or pick up my guitar for more than three years. The only thing that kept me going was the love in those little blue, eyed girls of mine.
When you hit rock bottom, you are presented with a choice though. You can give up or look up. Well I chose to look up and use my pain as tool to better my life. Had I never experienced those hardships, I would have never been blessed with the strength and knowledge of true pain. I found a safe harbor back in my music and wrote my way back to life again. Some of the best songs I have ever written came from the hardest times in my life. Now, I write music to help people. I write music to inspire people to keep pushing through. I write music to make a difference in the world, even if it only starts with one person’s life.
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